autumn is here

What’s the end of summer like after school?

When I wake up at 6 am it’s not sunny outside anymore- it’s dark. When I go outside I need to take my coat with me. On the social media and in the streets I see youngsters starting to go to school/ university after their summer breaks. Their constant whining about the ending of their holiday is so inconsiderate to working people and the ones who did not get a holiday for the summer. Well, I whined as well, when I was in their place so I have nothing to be dissatisfied about. The beginning of the new school year means so much to them.

But what does it mean to us? To me?

There won’t be that many changes in my life. I studied all summer and I’ll continue doing so as well as working. My work routine will change- I work as a childminder, so I’ll need to bring the kids to school and spend most of the day walking from one place to another. Also, when I am meeting with friends more often we will be choosing inside places to hang out like our home or a shopping center, cinema etc. I’ll need to start wearing my warm coat and I’ll need to get used to waking up in the dark. I will also probably experience some more depressive moods since it will be rainy most of the days.
It’s a bit sad to not be going to school and college when everyone is excited about meeting their friends and about the beginning of a new school year. That feeling of belonging, of not wanting to go back, of excitement and of resentment- so many messed up and opposite feelings about an institution called School. I can feel all of it in the air- or rather my own memories of such experience.
The summer no longer means the beginning of a new year of torture for us, because the ‘torture’ doesn’t stop with summer anymore and it’s hopefully not as torturing as well. I don’t see the point in agonizing all twelve years just to come into the world and agonize even more.

We were made to agonize all those years to ‘have a better life’- but when does the better life come?

When you realize that you can let yourself go and just live, the world or rather your concept of it changes. ‘Just do what you like’ they say. Everyone talks about it, but not a lot of people really do it. If you like sitting and watching TV- just do it. If you like playing computer games- just do it. I let you. Let yourself. Not just for an hour. Do it for days, for weeks, for months until you get tired of it. And if you don’t, continue doing it.
After a certain amount of time we realize if we’re just wasting the time, we realize we are interested in other stuff. We rest from the society and let our inner US talk. That’s when we’ll find how to live our ‘best life’ and what the ‘best life’ means to us. That’s also what helped me find writing as something I enjoy doing. (By the way, I just posted a new short story-‘Monsters Are We’)
When you finish the school/ university- the ending of summer doesn’t mean as much to you anymore. However, you could make it mean more by giving time to yourself and your dreams. For You Maybe the beginning of ‘a new school year’ can be a beginning of figuring out yourself. So don’t get lazy and fall into the ‘flow’ and routine while making your own terms!

As a kid, I loved to read fantasy novels. I still do now. I tried to study in a university... twice. Both times I quit before even reaching the second semester. Then I decided it's not for me and started searching for other ways to fill in my life and this blog is one of the consequences as well as starting to write my fantasy novel!

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