A starting writer’s diary- entry Nr.1

Everything I am working on at the moment, all my dreams, ideas and hopes for the future seems to be depending on my book. The book that I am writing so hesitantly. The book, which I am afraid to start writing because I feel like everything depends on it. I have my own blog… about writing books, I am studying… to write books better, I am also attending a writing group… to practice writing and get inspired to write my own book and I am also doing a ‘500 words per day’ challenge to find my own writing style and find myself. I do all of this to write a spectacular book. I guess it’s not a surprise that when I finally sit down to write my book I feel paralyzed, out of ideas, and just by sheer willpower manage to write down a page worth of words.

Now there are two different POV’s (point of view) I could take here. First one is that I am doing way too many things around writing my book and not really doing IT, that I am procrastinating and am scared of actual pure writing. Another POV would be that I am giving 90% of my power to cultivate, learn and develop myself in my area and 10% of it for actual raw goal achievement. Both of those views have a grain of truth in them but I shall take my stance on the second one, since I know if I work to know my subject better, if I educate myself and upgrade my skills and if I put at least that 10% of well-directed work towards my goal each day- I am certain to reach it and it will definitely be something good. Maybe it’s not the fastest way and not the most productive one, but I believe it is the most rewarding one as I will learn loads of things along the way and when I find my way to succeed at my goal it will be epic!

As a kid, I loved to read fantasy novels. I still do now. I tried to study in a university... twice. Both times I quit before even reaching the second semester. Then I decided it's not for me and started searching for other ways to fill in my life and this blog is one of the consequences as well as starting to write my fantasy novel!


  • Bernadette

    You’re going to make it. Believe this more than anything else. The key difference to success and NOT success rests on perseverance. In order to make your goal, you need to make progress. Even 10% IS progress.
    Please keep going.

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