Everything I am working on at the moment, all my dreams, ideas and hopes for the future seems to be depending on my book. The book that I am writing so hesitantly. The book, which I am afraid to start writing because I feel like everything depends on it. I have my own blog… about writing books, I am studying… to write books better, I am also attending a writing group… to practice writing and get inspired to write my own book and I am also doing a ‘500 words per day’ challenge to find my own writing style and find myself. I do all of this to write a spectacular book. I guess it’s not a surprise that when I finally sit down to write my book I feel paralyzed, out of ideas, and just by sheer willpower manage to write down a page worth of words.
Now there are two different POV’s (point of view) I could take here. First one is that I am doing way too many things around writing my book and not really doing IT, that I am procrastinating and am scared of actual pure writing. Another POV would be that I am giving 90% of my power to cultivate, learn and develop myself in my area and 10% of it for actual raw goal achievement. Both of those views have a grain of truth in them but I shall take my stance on the second one, since I know if I work to know my subject better, if I educate myself and upgrade my skills and if I put at least that 10% of well-directed work towards my goal each day- I am certain to reach it and it will definitely be something good. Maybe it’s not the fastest way and not the most productive one, but I believe it is the most rewarding one as I will learn loads of things along the way and when I find my way to succeed at my goal it will be epic!